One of my current bug bears is my confused and dis-organised thinking and this is particularly vexing to a person who is usually extremely organised and able to multi-task without a problem.
It is frustrating and incredibly hard to deal with on a daily basis and when I start to forget things it’s time to take action. Yesterday I forgot my hair appointment but luckily my hairdresser was able to fit me in later in the morning. Paul understands my condition, and I had a lovely 30 minutes of “me” time whilst I had my hair washed and conditioned (a good 2 minutes of head massage……bliss) a cup of coffee and a good chin-wag about football whilst he tidied me up.
Afterwards I made my way to the quilting shop and bought some goodies to make my memo-board as suggested by Colleen, the idea being that I write 1 task on a post-it note with the “to-do”deadline date and attach it to the left side of the board. Each day I take the urgent tasks and move them to the right-hand side of the board to do today. As I complete each task, I can dispose of the note with satisfaction of a “JD” (job done).
I chose the material I fancied and then scoured the charity shops for a canvas to up-cycle and finally came across a brand new one for the grand sum of £1. It was even still in its original packaging so even if I messed up, it was still a bargain buy!
It didn’t take me long to make the board and I am now the proud owner of an item which is hanging on my kitchen wall, covered in post-it notes reminding me what I need to do over the next few weeks.
This week has been a real struggle and my emotions have swung from a complete melt-down on Monday, when I truly thought I was heading for hospital in-patient treatment to a mini-high on Wednesday when I thought I’d cracked this latest episode of depression only to dip again yesterday. Depression can be a roller-coaster of a ride and I have certainly experienced the very lows and some mediocre highs over the last few days.
I have committed myself to going back to work on Monday. I am not 100% yet but I have to make the effort and start to get back into routine. It will be tough. Very tough, but fortune favours the brave and I am determined to challenge this illness as best I can and I need to be back with my friends and colleagues.
In the meantime, I have been trying very hard not to sleep during the day in preparation for the long days ahead. I have kept busy without exerting myself too much and although I feel exhausted, I know I must not give in to the fatigue without a fight. A regular sleeping pattern must be established if I am to return to work successfully so no midday naps allowed!
Instead, card making has taken priority today, and another design inspired from an article in Craft Stamper.