I haven’t had the energy to Blog recently. I am trying to save this precious commodity to continue as normal a life as possible and it seems to be working. There will be good days and bad days, good weeks and bad weeks, but I see now that a combination and balance of activity and rest is the only way forward. I’m happy with that and am prepared to work at it to make it a success.
So much has happened in the 2 months since I last wrote here, and most importantly I have learned so much. Not so much about me, but about what others think of me. I have learnt what is important to me, who is important and who I trust. This has been quite interesting as a couple of people are clearly not who I thought they were and I am pleased, nay, relieved that they are no longer part of my life. Negative, unfulfilled, shallow, under-achieving and self-deceiving people are hard to accommodate. They bring misery and doubt to everyone they associate with. Some people just refuse to take responsibility for their own mistakes and errors of judgement yet still profess to be worthy of public trust and faith. Too many people think that they can behave as they wish, say “sorry” and move on regardless. They are happy to “blame” organisations, institutions, employers and anyone but themselves for their plight. Sad. If you can’t admit your failings to yourself and use it as a learning experience incorporating self-awareness it is going to be difficult to recover. Honesty is paramount. If you can’t be honest with yourself, your life is a sham, built on sand and no amount of blown vinyl will cover the cracks.
I am lucky. I live in an environment where honesty is admired and encouraged. We don’t judge. We discuss issues that arise with the sole aim of finding a solution. We try to learn from the experiences that life throws at us whatever they may be.
It is not easy to reach this position but it can be done.
I wish that more would do the same.