Waiting for good

When I last saw my Doctor on Wednesday we chatted at length about the time it is taking me to recover from my latest bout of depression. I suppose like all things, it gets harder as you get older.

She reassured me that I am heading in the right direction, albeit at snail’s pace, but that during my recovery phase I can expect to have good days and bad days. I have to learn to accept the bad days and be kind to myself and I also need to recognise good days and not do too much. I have been waiting for a good day and today has been one of the best for a number of weeks. Of course it is all relative and I need to remember that I am not recovered, I am just not as despairing and hopeless as I have been. But it feels good.

I have achieved more today than I have for a long time but made sure that I had plenty of rest as well in between short bouts of activity.

I managed to pot up my seedlings. Sitting in the lovely warm sunshine with a barrow full of compost in front of me, I was quite content.

Seedlings potted up

Seedlings potted up

I did a tour of my garden taking note of all the new growth bursting forth at last. Here are some of my favourite bits.


9 thoughts on “Waiting for good

  1. Yes, learning to accept the bad days without berating one’s self and enjoy the good days. Thank you so much for sharing your lovely garden. It brought sunshine to my day.

  2. Glad you had a good day 🙂
    Re some of your ‘demons’ this week – I wonder whether some of that is side effects before everything settles down (which it will) ??

    • Thank you 🙂 I think it may be a typical case of it gets worse before it gets better. My mind has been churning all week but today is remarkably calmer and much less exhausting. Let’s hope I’ve been purged and this is the turning point! One day at a time.

  3. Your garden shots are so cheery!
    I find that a good day or few are followed by especially difficult down days. And that conversation about how long it takes to recover is certainly a familiar one to me. Good for you for remembering to monitor yourself and rest. Hang in there.

    • Thank you for your support-it means a lot and I know what you mean. I am trying to rearrange my work schedule sensibly to reduce travelling and my Blackberry is switched off from 5pm and all weekend now 😀 It feels weird putting myself as a priority but this episode has scared me.

  4. I love your garden pictures. Thank you for sharing your beautiful yard. I like that you are choosing to be kind to yourself over how long it is taking. It is a reminder to me to not be discouraged because I am seeing my counselor more frequently again. Thanks.

  5. Well done on achieving all that work in your garden! It looks really lovely.
    I agree, it’s hard when progress is slow sometimes. But remember to take one step forward each day, no matter how small…you may not see the outcome of the journey, but you can take the next step 🙂
    Thank-you for sharing your garden…the bleeding heart looks amazing! I’ve never seen it before

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