The last few months have been hectic to say the least and the shortage of time and energy has meant that I haven’t felt much like writing before collapsing in a heap snoring away merrily at the end of the day.
So what’s made life so hectic?…. in no particular order;
- I started a new job in December
- I turned 50 a few weeks ago
- I have started ice-skating lessons
- I am now the proud owner of a kindle
- I have lost 2 stones in weight
and that’s just a few of the things going on day-to-day which have had more than a minor impact on my routine.
A few brave choices have meant that whilst in the short term I am busy and under quite a bit of stress, the mid and long-term benefits will be worth the effort.
My only concern amongst all this positivity is that I have a relapse due to a reaction to all this excess activity which has plagued me in the past. I am trying to eat sensibly, get enough sleep and not get too stressed about “stuff”. My depression has a pattern which I discovered during a series of therapy sessions with my psychologist. We had been working for a long time on cause and effect and after looking at a number of possible triggers we found the answer. My most severe depressive episodes have arrived after a period of prolonged stress-either physical or mental-which suggests that a good proportion of my mental reaction to stress is physical. Chemicals have a lot to answer for and if they are not happy and balanced, neither am I! I guess this is why anti-depressants worked so well for me even though there were also underlying issues that I needed to deal with along the way.
Depression is so complex!
Anyway-suffice to say that I am feeling much much better and life is good again. I’m not taking anything for granted but neither am I being too negative…that’s easy to do.
As and when I get the chance I will write about my experiences in the hope that some will gain hope and assurance that life can and will get better if you stay strong and stay positive.
Sometimes however you have to be brave and take a chance to put things right. Follow your heart. Trust your instinct.
It worked for me.