Is it really 10 days since I posted on here? For someone who has blogged every day in 2011 as part of the Postaday Challenge and often more than once a day that seems rather a large gap in proceedings but yes, it is true.
How has this happened I wonder?
Depression is a strange beast at the best of times and the way it manifests itself in me can be described as “Jeckyll & Hyde”. I am a person of extreme emotions and I am very much an all or nothing person. Having said that I am mellowing in my old age and am working on being more stable and discovering what I really want out of life. I have been told more than once that unless I change my attitude towards life and living, I am going to find it difficult to get old. I have always been 100%, full on, high energy and have been angry when my mind and body has “let me down”. I realise now however that they haven’t let me down at all. I just need to admit that I too am human and have weaknesses and frailties just like everyone else. If I can’t do everything I want or expect to do maybe I’m expecting too much rather than thinking that I have failed in my quest to be Superwoman. Approaching 50 years of age I have decided that someone else can be Superwoman and “Good luck” to them.
So, I’ve taken a break from the “Postaday” Challenge. So what? Does it matter now? Will it matter in 6 or 12 months time?
I have recently discovered the wonderful series Gavin and Stacey (a bit later than most but hey, I’m enjoying it now!), and as Uncle Bryn says;
“Take a chill-pill and keep it real”.
Keeping it real is my next challenge. Chilling out may take a while longer.